It has been awhile

I know its been awhile since I've posted things have changed, Emma is 13 months old and a beautiful, crazy 13 month old at that. She does everything and anything she wants to do. She runs around the house like she owns it and she even bites. For Halloween she had a blast she was a little cow, she looked so cute. Her favorite candy is tootsie pops the little ones. She just makes everyday a blast but also a challenge.

Brandon is doing good just working his butt off like always. I am doing well going to school and trying too keep Miss little Emma in line.

There is a reason I am blogging today I want to get somethings off my chest, things I have been thinking about for a while. Its been so long since I have blogged that I doubt anyone will look at this but that's OK.

Well here it goes have you ever wondered( or you might be in this situation) what it would be like to have everything. I mean a good( nothing is ever perfect) relationship with your husband (which me and Brandon do, most of the time), money( meaning that you don't have to worry about going paycheck to paycheck), a relationship with GOD ( which we do), and a family(which we do). I know its bad too say but I just wonder, and your not supposed to wonder about what you don't have but sometimes I can't help it. I mean Brandon works so much overtime and it never seems to get us anywhere. If we have the money something always gives, we just shelled out $195 for our septic system. I want to start selling Pampered Chef so I can still stay home with Emma go to school and make a little money, but It seems like we will never have the $155 to ever get it started. My little bit of hope to start spending less at the grocery just went out the window. Emma was on WIC( women's, infants and children; they pay for formula and milk) last year which helped out a lot, but this year do to a pay increase she won't be on it a gain, which should be good but we are only over by $30 ever two weeks. I just don't know what to do I pray and put my trust in GOD, but we are still there, I just hope we make it through Christmas.

Love you all,

Valerie